I love my friends, my job and my writing. Right now, I’m feeling beset on all sides, though. I like to think I’m a supportive and caring person. It’s always been easier for me to give than to receive and that makes things hard for me. When I need support and patience, it seems it’s in short supply. It almost seems like it becomes the expected norm for me to be the strong one and I get no quarter from others.
Right now, I’m under some emotional stress and am buried at work with upcoming court appearances and depositions that I need to be prepping for. I’m also trying in every spare moment to get this manuscript that I have done polished and ready to submit. Right now, I have nothing out there to any of my publishers with a release date and I need to get this done so I can submit it.
Every time I find 10 mins to relax, it seems like there is pressure on me to do something. Like respond to an email, send a letter, answer a question, etc. I’m respectfully asking that I be given some space to just BE. If you see me tweeting or a new blog post comes up (I do have several already written that are set to go off at a certain time/day), that just means I had a few minutes for me. I do need me time once in a while. I really want to answer all the needs my friends have but right now, I feel spent. Tired- exhausted even. Please understand it’s not that I love anyone any less, it’s that I need to love me for the next few days.
Jillian Chantal 
That’s completely understandable, Jillian. Maybe I’m selfish because I definitely take the “me” time regardless of everyone wants me to do. It might be five minutes, but I take it and cherish it.
Sometimes you do what you have to do to stay sane.
By: danicaavet on August 16, 2011
at 8:08 am
Thanks Danica. I’m working on that- I’m trying not to feel pressured but it’s not easy for me to turn that off.
By: Jillian Chantal on August 16, 2011
at 10:03 am
Me time is super important. Otherwise you get all out of balance, you know? hang in there my friend.
By: Lynn Rush on August 16, 2011
at 8:50 am
Thanks Lynn. I appreciate it.
By: Jillian Chantal on August 16, 2011
at 9:59 am
Yep. Been there. Done that. Will do it again, I’m sure. Sigh. This is when I generally start saying NO for a while. So, repeat after me. NO. NO. NO. I will not take on one more thing…at least for a while. Good luck!
By: Laurie Ryan on August 16, 2011
at 8:18 pm
I’m with you and can really say no, but it just seems to be all amassing on me at one time. I think I’ll be ok, just still hurting and grieving for my friend and it’s getting me down.
By: Jillian Chantal on August 16, 2011
at 9:08 pm